Knock Knock

It’s well past midnight

unable to sleep

tossing and turning,

I don’t know what to do;

my mind is wandering aimlessly

in search of something

that I once had and

somehow slipped out my hand;

Struggling to understand this

tug of war between the mind and heart

I try to search for a solution

so as to agree on a compromise;

Trying to pay attention

to what’s happening around me,

I try to decipher the clues and hints

that I believe are there for my picking;

Like a fish out of water,

out of innocence into adulthood

too soon into this fast paced game

where I am just a spectator, lost and bewildered;

So, what happened?

where did I all go wrong?

what am I supposed to do?

what is it that I have to do?

Plenty of questions and

answers all out there,

is what I am told?

yet I am totally lost;

Going round and round

in a place where the streets

have no name, I bobble

in and out of life;

As the storm rages on unabated,

the leaves blow and the trees sway,

all I know is that I am here to stay,

till the day my heart gives up on me;