Bitter Sweet

The bitter liquid gushed through my throat

I had thrown myself to the unknown,

I descended rapidly into a chasm of infinity,

And shut out all the reality.

I wanted to dream again, to feel alive,

I wanted not only to survive,

I wanted to be free and happy,

By losing myself into a silent sleep.

I believed a life, that I never lived

I wanted to reach out to the sky, and fall on my knees,

I was too timid to test my limits,

But for once, on my way up, I dared to touch a star.

Last Sip

A joy in its darkness

a thrill in its depth  

a pleasure in its confusion

A scorched, blackened face

laughing like a madman 

brighter than any moon 

a shadow on a night journey

Hiding your deepest secrets

blindness is all that you can see

faint murmurs of time & space

beyond the realm of reason

a world so far away

Where there is no god or the devil

Nothing is sweeter

than its bitterness

let me have one last sip

to live as if

I am already in heavens above

Finally

He followed the birds thinking 

They may be going to meet her

He counted the stars

Hoping that she may come, when the counting ends

But as time passed only the number was mounting

He could never finish counting them

There were too many 

But he never got tired

He kept asking his friends

Do they count too, to meet her?

One day he decided to dive into the waves

To ask them if they have seen her

He didn’t know how to swim

But he was following a dream

He kept going deeper and deeper

Until he saw her in the water

But he no longer could breathe

He finally met his mother at death.

Let Me Pretend

Everyday reminds of memories of old,

Of words, thoughts, hugs, kisses

Anger, sulks & tugs of war

It brings back sighs of days of heat and cold

And days we stared and wondered what was more

The pristine breeze is reminiscent of your radiant face

Embellished in various hues

Adorned in shades of innocence

Creases opening into a smile of grace

Of all glorious days & quiet nights

That traveled with us

Dreaming, gazing, soaring

In a foolish stupor

But then I stop to look behind and forth

Since now alone we know, and thus obey

This transient game will one day gain its worth

When he or she steps in and we nod

So till time grimly comes to draw the line

Let me pretend to dream, and think you are mine.

A Heart that Beats

A multitude of voices

Call u at once

Stabbing at your heart

With poems, paintings

Selling their romantic sonnets

With a dash of color

On their vast canvas

A prince from fairyland

Armed with the best degree

On their knees

Professing their love

Offering a glittering array of jewels

At your tender feet

A mute voice with palms to the sky

With no gold in his pocket

But a few pearls of glistening droplets

All he has to offer is some solitude

Where words fail

But there is a heart that beats

And this love that awaits

One Moment

A wisp of breeze kisses my cheeks

I pause to touch its tenderness

Trying to hold its softness

Like your velvety skin

It pervades my soul

You are the sound of rain droplets

The full moon which tries to hide behind the trees

The gentle whispers which echoes

And sways through ardent winds

We travel on parallel paths

Destined to never meet

But always together

Gathering flowers along the way

And sharing the music of their fragrance

You exist between winds

At the start and end of somewhere

like a moment

Here, there, everywhere

But can’t find it

 .......It has passed.

Testimony

I am a liar

A pretender

A player, playing the game

A hypocrite

Watching

and hoping that no one sees

the real me

The secrets that I hold

The fear I hide

The sadness I mask 

The wounds I conceal

The scars I cover

The pain I bury

A truth I can't tell

I stand accused

By friends

By enemies

I have no regrets

nor any remorse

I do not intend 

to defend myself

or hire a lawyer

to save me from the gallows

I just want to say

Only once

Just this once

I did not kill anyone

Only I carry

A truth I can’t tell